Its been awhile ...

So it's been a good year possibly since I last blogged ... I remember saying to myself when I first started blogging that I'd be one of those people who would try and blog every other week ... I guess that worked out well hey! Haha

Any way ... So where's life taken me over these last few months? Everywhere!!!!

So I'm in my second year of uni and I'm absolutely hating it! It's like no mans land, I think it's safe to say my motivation for uni right now is at its all time lowest! That however doesn't mean that I don't want to be there ... I just need to pick myself up and pull my finger out haha

I have a lovely new man in my life - Kyle! He's great! He makes me incredibly happy, that's not to say we don't have our ups and downs .. Life's dealt us a few rocks lately but if we can get through this we can get through anything! It's the crappy times that help form a couple I think ... I think we're incredibly strong! We have two nice little get away a to look forward to which is always a bonus!

Church .... Well that's a no go these days! That's not because I don't believe or anything like that, I still have a very firm belief in Heavenly Father and Jesus Chris ... A lot happened I guess but I still pray and read my scriptures .. I've still felt the Lord in my life so I guess I can't complain. I truly believe that the Lord loves you matter who you are or what you do .. My relationship with the Lord is between me and him and not me, him and a middle man. Me not going to church doesn't define that relationship ... But who knows what the future holds on that subject hey!!!


Family life ... Where do I even start!! It's not been the easiest of starts for The Taylor Family! Mums been pretty ill and has been since January. It's not how we planned on starting 2015 ... Just after New Years mum decided to go to the doctors because she wasn't feeling like herself, she was sent for loads of different tests ... Before we knew it mum was being rushed into hospital for an emergency operation! Mum was so scared, I was scared .... Mums operation went well but she ended up staying in ICU for a few days so she could gather her strength. The worst was yet to come though .. When my mum first came out of her operation the surgeon took me aside and told me the worst possible kind of news - They had found bowel cancer and there was a chance it could have spread to her liver. As soon as I heard the C word my world came crashing down .. My heart literally broke! That's the last thing you expect to hear! The worst thing was, that night I had to go and kiss my mum goodnight knowing what I did when she had no idea ...

So the months have passed by and mums recovered well from her operation and now it's the time for her to kick cancers bum! She started chemo last week and seems to be doing well ... My mum is a fighter and she will beat this! The Lord is by our side and we have felt his love and comfort.

I'm so grateful for all those that have supported our family, you have all gone above and beyond!
Kath, Debbie, Sarah, Honor .. Bev .. The list is endless!

And Kyle ... Thank you! You've been my rock, I've been the worst person possible as of late yet you've stuck by me.

I'll keep you all posted!

Much love

Tasha


Xxx

A Chrsitmas Carol ... Bah Humbug! What The Dickens???

Can you believe its that time of year already? Its crazy how time flies ....

A few months ago it was brought to my attention that my stake was putting on the production A Christmas Carol. To start off with I wasnt too sure if I wanted to be apart of it. Im a singer not an actor BUT after being apart of the British Pageant in the summer I felt I couldnt pass this oppertunity off.

BEST CHOICE EVER!!!!!

I havent blogged for awhile but I felt it right to blog about my experience during these last few months of rehersals and the final product. It has been crazy and as I sit here typing im struggling to think of how best to explain my thoughts and feelings. So bare with me ... Are you ready??

Firstly to start off with I feel that its important to mention our wonderful producers who worked so hard on bringing this magical Christmas Production together. Without the likes of Aaron, Jenni and Freda this would not have been possible. I cant even imagine how much theyve done that we havent seen. They are seriosuly the best and of course talented. Its amazing how a group of people can get together and produce such an amazing outcome. I feel truly blessed and honoured that I was able to work with these 3 talented people ... From day one im pretty sure they knew who they wanted each and everyone of us to play and man did they get it spot on!

The A Team :)



My better half :)






 

So briefly The "A Team" casted me as a Soul and as Beth .. I had so much fun getting into my different characters! On one hand I had to play a tourtured soul who looked rather angry and slightly depressed and then on the other hand I had to play Beth wife of Scrooges Nephew Fred who was slightly posh ... for anyone who knows me knows that I am far from posh :P But ... thanks to those around me and my wonderful on stage hubby formally known as Karl I was able to feel comfortable and confident and yess I think I pulled both roles off rather well if I do say so myself. I cant express my grattitude enough to my coco Fred ... He was literally my rock. He helped me to stay calm on both nights of the performances and we just had such a laugh. I really dont know what I would have done without him!!! :D

So performance night was approaching and we had a dress rehersal on the Wednesday, I wont lie after doing this particular rehersal I was rather scared as to how the actual nights were going to go because it didnt go too well ... I for a start forgot my lines!! But when Thursday came and we had a little audience for a REAL dress rehersal all hope was restored and we were all excited for the real thing!!!

I feel like im babbling on here but I did tell you I would struggle for words .. anyway lets continue :P

Just before we hit the stage for our first performance.

Dunnnn Dunnn  Dunnnnn ... It was D DAY! Friday night had approached and it was our opening night. IT WAS AMAZING!!!! It went so well, we had some slight technical problems but thats nothing our Technical master James couldnt sort .. He was fab! I think there was around 300 odd people watching on the Friday night including some of my non member friends .. They loved it.
Everybody did so well. It was so tiring when we had finished but we were all so excited at the thought of doing it all over again the following night ... Safe to say Friday night we all slept pretty well!!


This was it, it was our final night .. I think we all had mixed emotions as it was our last night but man did we go out with a bang!! Saturday night, our final show was just the bees knees ... Nerves had well and truly left the building! WE SMASHED IT! the crowd loved it and everything went amazingly! I was so proud to be apart of it!

There are so many things that I loved from this experience, it was so nice to be able to spread Christmas Cheer for all those that attended and it was so important to us that we showed the true meaning of Christmas and I think we did a pretty good job ... I was able to go through this process with my mum. Everybody including myself was able to see a side to her that we really never usually see .. shes crazy, a darkhorse! Ive loved meeting new people and making new friends. I know that my testimony has been strengthened so much by doing this and by doing it with the people I have done! Ive had the time of my life and I owe it all to you ... ( Oh yes a bit of dirty dancing in there haha)

Thank you to everybody that had any involvment within this you really did make it special!

God Bless you! <3

We did it!!!!!
I love my second family!
ACC 2013





 

 

"Everybody got time fo that" ...

I cant believe its nearly June already, where has the year gone?
Im not going to lie Ive been totally blessed these last few months ...
Are you guys ready? So guess whos going to Uni in September? Yep thats right ME! Its only taken me like 4 years to decide to do this ... The best thing is that I was offered an UNCONDITIONAL place at my first Uni of choice Chester. So come September I will be studying Youth work so I can finally work closer to gaining my dream job as a Youth Probation Officer. Ohhhh Yeahhh! Can you tell Im excited? No? Thought not ;) ... Im so ready to embark on this new adventure! Its so true what they say, If you do everything your supposed to do and you follow the Lord you will be blessed. Well I couldnt think of a better blessing than this. Oh and on the subject of blessings I finally after 9 months have a job. Its not my dream job but it offers me stability and a sense of independance again which as we all no is something Ive really missed. So you could say life is good.

Over the last few months Ive been blessed with so many amazing friends, inside and outside of the church. Friends are the family you choose ... Its so true! I must have choosen some pretty epic family members. " Everybody got time fo that" ;)

I had the pleasure of being able to attend The Bristol Convention in May. Not gunna lie it was epic and to top it off I got a tan ;) No really ... It was amazing! The dances were so much fun and the oppertunity to see some old friends was just perfect. The best day had to have been the Saturday when we competed in the "Its a knockout" ... Ive never had so much fun in my life. Mormons in Sumo costumes going crazy on blow up courses was just awesome. One thing I really loved about this convention was the tight bond that was made with friendships - Friendships for life were made this weekend and I know that Im eternally grateful for that and Im sure others would say the same.





















As most of you know I am a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints. Gosh I love my church, my calling as The Young Single Adult Leader and most of all My Saviour. The Church over these next few months are going to be offering me one of the best summers EVER. I have the excitment of being an EFY leader (Especially for youth) which I am SO excited for because I remeber how amazing it was when I was in youth. A week of having your testimony strengthened and meeting equally amazing people .. You cant go wrong.

As well as going on EFY I have the amazing oppertunity of being apart of the First British Pageant for our church. Both myself and my mum are apart of the family cast - My mums so excited at the prospect of wearing a bonnett ahah .. Me, I just cant wait to be apart of this amazing oppertunity and being able to do it with some amazing friends and my mummy. HOW EPIC!

Keep loving life, I know I will ... Roll on happy times.

God bless you all x

If You Can Dream It, You Can Do It.

So its been ages since I last left a post, alots changed since then...

So I know Ive blogged alot about changes and what not, well theres been some big changes in my life recently. You are now looking at a student, yes thats right Ive gone back into education. I seriously didnt think this would happen again. Im currently studying for my Diploma in Youth Work Practice, come July you will be looking at a fully qualified Youth Worker. Its always been a dream of mine to work with youths but it doesnt just stop there .... Come septemeber I will be studying so that I can become a Youth Offending Officer. How exciting!!! After alot of thinking and alot of ups and downs Ive realised that all my life Ive wanted to work with troubled Youths. Ive always felt like I wouldnt be capable of doing something like just basically due to the work load of uni and stuff but do you know what, If I can dream it, I can so totally do it! Anything is possible if you set your mind to it and well im  ready .. Its seriously time to settle down and get my future on track. I am so excited, the current course Im doing is hard dont get me wrong but I know that If I focus and turn to my Heavenly Father Ill be able to do the very best I can. So watch this space ;)

Church wise life is pretty good, Ive just been given a second calling in church. I am now the YSA rep for the St Helens ward. Im pretty excited, I love spending time with the YSA of my ward their such a great bunch of people. Institute year has started up again ... Ive vowed that I will attend Institute this year as much as I may not want to .. I guess in some cases thats Satan kinda stopping me and putting negative thoughts in my head but I shall not let him win .. So yeah, If I dont attend Institute I give you all permission to kick my butt .. Yes you have it here in writing!!!

Job wise Ive still had no hope, its quite depressing really as know one seems to want to employ me ... I apply for jobs Im qulified in - I get rejected .. I apply for jobs Im trained in and dont really want to do - I STILL get rejected. I cant win! Havent a clue what to do .. For those people out there who sit there and say its easy to get a job. Yeah you havent got a clue! There maybe a shead loads of jobs out there but it doesnt mean youll get hired. You can have amazing qualifications and experience but it doesnt mean that your going to get the job. Im a hard worker who enjoys a challenge and enjoys learning new skills but im still jobless ... So I think before people sit there and critisise those who dont work put yourself in our shoes. Its hard and its stressful. I hate not having the same freedom I had when I worked as a Nursery Nurse. I hate not being able to contribute as much as I would of if I was working. But ... The Lord works in mysterious ways and I know somewhere down the line someones going to give me a break and Ill eventually get the job im supposed to have. Lifes good. Keeping Positive!

The Lord works in mysterious ways and you may feel like the world is against you BUT everythign happens for a reason you just have to keep the faith and be positive.

Muchos Lovings Bloggers

x

So I havent blogged for awhile ... one thing Ive found with my blog is that I like to keep it on a Spiritual level. Its all good blogging about what your going to have for dinner but my purpose for my blog is to inspire people and show people my testimony of The Church of Jesus Christ.

Well ... Today I was able to attend church, I was surviving on around 3 hours sleep! I must say im impressed by the fact that I was actually able to keep a focus on everything that was going on around me. The one thing, well theres a few things that stood out to me today. As we all came together for our final meeting of the day and the bread and water was blessed and passed around we had the pleasure of listening to a talk by a young women who has recently just left the young womens programme. Her talk spoke about her time in young women and her trials with not only the programme but also herself. I found this talk so touching and it actually brought a tear to my eye which for those who know me is rare haha ... It focused on the topic of Self Worth. Sometimes thats such a tricky topic for a person to talk about, I know this oh so well. When listening to this talk the spirit touched me so much and made me realise a few things. I dont really know this young women but I was so proud of her and for the words she spoke, it truly came from her heart .. We as YSA will be very blessed to have someone like that within our programme.

All the way through Sacrement the main theme that stood out to me was Eternity and preparing to obtain this and all its blessings. Eternity is such a long long time and I am finding that this preperation isnt going to just happen over night, its always going to be an on going thing. Theres so many people around me getting engaged and preparing to marry within the temple of the Lord and its made me realise that this is something that I myself would really like. The Lord knows my hearts desires and its upto me to prepare and to do all the things I need to do. Throughout the whole of my time within the Young Women programme one comment that always stuck in my head was "You Need to prepare to be Mrs Right" ... Im learning as im growing up that this statement is so true, as a youth you kinda brush those certain comments aside and think yeah its all good ill defo get married etc ... Im learning that for something like this to happen to me I need to put preperation into it, I need to be at a stable Spritual Level and I need to be doing the things the Lord asks of me. Once this has happened and the Lord feels its the right time then I hope im blessed with marriage and also the oppertunity to have an Eternal family. What a blessing that is for everybody! Its a long road but I know for myself that if im doing everything I should be the Lord will bless me. Lifes hard when its full of so many unknowns .. but thats when Faith comes into it.

Im grateful to know that the Saviour has given us the oppertunity to have Eternal life and to return home with him with our own Eternal families.

Ima stop all the soppyness but I really felt like I needed to share this as its so important to me and its my goal to obtain Eternal Life and to be able to share it with my Eternal companion.

Lifes full of ups and downs but we need to stay true to the Lord and continue to do all we know we should be doing. The Saviour loves us and wants us to be happy and he wants us to all return home to him again.

Enjoy the rest of your Sabbath day ... <3

“A testimony is a most precious possession because it is not acquired by logic or reason alone, it cannot be purchased with earthly possessions, and it cannot be given as a present or inherited from our ancestors. We cannot depend on the testimonies of other people. We need to know for ourselves. President Gordon B. Hinckley said, ‘Every Latter-day Saint has the responsibility to know for himself or herself with a certainty beyond doubt that Jesus is the resurrected, living Son of the living God.”

― Dieter F. Uchtdorf

So Ive not blogged in awhile ... Lifes pretty amazing right now, I have some amazing people in my life that make everything so worth while. Ive learnt that life is far too short and that I need to live it to its fullest.

Church life is super amazing, I had the pleasure of doing a talk last week about the Joy of service. I spoke about a story of a young man giving up his time of study to spend it with his grandmother who was in the final stages of her mortal life, this story really touched me .. what he did was such a selfless act of service and love for his grandmother. It made me think about whether or not I do enough for those around me. My talk really has inspired me to do more for those around me, espaecially my mum.

The main reason for my blog this evening is to talk about testimony. Testimony plays a huge part in my life, without it I wouldnt be the strongest Latter-day Saint that I am today. It is so important that you obtain yoiur own testimony of the gospel and heavenly father and so on as that is your starting foundation.

I am truly blessed that Ive been able to recognise my own testimony and love for gospel since the age of 11. When I first had the discussions with the missionaries I knew from then that the church was true and the Book Mormon was true. Such an amazing feeling when you know! Believe me!

Over the years Ive faced many different types of trials, some minor and some utterly heartbreaking. Sometimes I may have swayed from the Gospel but the one thing that has always pulled me back is my testimony. How could I walk away from the Gospel knowing that it was true, how could I walk away from my loving Saviour? Luckily I saw the light so to speak and im here and my testimony is ever growing ... When you obtain a testimony it doesnt just stay the same .. each day it progesses and becomes stronger.

I love my Saviour and im so grateful for the testimony that I have of our gospel. I know that as long as I do whats right and I hold on to that Iron rod Heavenly Father will provide so many amazing things for me. I can truly testify that this is the true gospel and that 9 years ago I made the best choice of my life and I wouldnt change it for the world.

Heavenly Father loves us no matter our flaws, he will never leave us. I love my friends and family so much.

Amen  & God Bless x


Ps. Sorry Its Such A Random Blog Tonight! ;)

Time To Prepare ...

Sunday 17th June 2012 .... A day where I finally recieve that much needed guidence, and when I say much needed I so totally mean it.

So Ive recently blogged about being at a "cross road" well Ive been amazingly blessed with the oppertunity to recieve something truly amazing within my church. Its a special blessing formally known as a Patriarchal Blessing. This special blessing will provide me with much needed guidence, comfort and protection. Its amazing really ... This type of blessing is very personal to the individual person.

Im so excited that I have the oppertunity to have it. Usually a person goes for this type of blessing when they feel ready .. There was a time when I had turned 14 years of age when I felt that I was ready for it, obvs that didnt happen ... So now at the age of 21 Ive been given this oppertunity to have it, all I can say is that it couldnt have come at a better time. Losing my job has really knocked me, im at the point where im not really sure what I should be doing .. Im hoping that by having my P blessing it will help me to know what I need to do. I wil be totally honest and say that I am a little afraid of what its going to say .. it may say that I need to leave my family for 18 months to go and serve a mission for my church. I honestly feel that serving a mission isnt for me no matter how many people sit there and tell me that it would be the making of me and the best thing that could ever happen to me it just doesnt feel right for me, but I could be totally wrong I could find out that serving a mission is what im destined to do .. I guess we shall see ... Ive been told to go in there with an open mind so I guess thats what ill do!

I know that this next week im going to have alot of oppersition and that alot of negativaty is going to be thrown my way .. I know this because its already started, this is where Ive really gotta stand my ground and be strong. Being strong is so hard sometimes, Ive always been known to be a strong person but in all honesty doing that 24/7 is incredibly exhausting .. especially when your going through a rubbish time ... My friends and family have been a great strength to me lately, its amazing whos there when your really struggling.

This weeks going to be tough but im going to do it and im going to be ok!