Time To Prepare ...

Sunday 17th June 2012 .... A day where I finally recieve that much needed guidence, and when I say much needed I so totally mean it.

So Ive recently blogged about being at a "cross road" well Ive been amazingly blessed with the oppertunity to recieve something truly amazing within my church. Its a special blessing formally known as a Patriarchal Blessing. This special blessing will provide me with much needed guidence, comfort and protection. Its amazing really ... This type of blessing is very personal to the individual person.

Im so excited that I have the oppertunity to have it. Usually a person goes for this type of blessing when they feel ready .. There was a time when I had turned 14 years of age when I felt that I was ready for it, obvs that didnt happen ... So now at the age of 21 Ive been given this oppertunity to have it, all I can say is that it couldnt have come at a better time. Losing my job has really knocked me, im at the point where im not really sure what I should be doing .. Im hoping that by having my P blessing it will help me to know what I need to do. I wil be totally honest and say that I am a little afraid of what its going to say .. it may say that I need to leave my family for 18 months to go and serve a mission for my church. I honestly feel that serving a mission isnt for me no matter how many people sit there and tell me that it would be the making of me and the best thing that could ever happen to me it just doesnt feel right for me, but I could be totally wrong I could find out that serving a mission is what im destined to do .. I guess we shall see ... Ive been told to go in there with an open mind so I guess thats what ill do!

I know that this next week im going to have alot of oppersition and that alot of negativaty is going to be thrown my way .. I know this because its already started, this is where Ive really gotta stand my ground and be strong. Being strong is so hard sometimes, Ive always been known to be a strong person but in all honesty doing that 24/7 is incredibly exhausting .. especially when your going through a rubbish time ... My friends and family have been a great strength to me lately, its amazing whos there when your really struggling.

This weeks going to be tough but im going to do it and im going to be ok!