Sunday 17th June 2012 .... A day where I finally recieve that much needed guidence, and when I say much needed I so totally mean it.
So Ive recently blogged about being at a "cross road" well Ive been amazingly blessed with the oppertunity to recieve something truly amazing within my church. Its a special blessing formally known as a Patriarchal Blessing. This special blessing will provide me with much needed guidence, comfort and protection. Its amazing really ... This type of blessing is very personal to the individual person.
Im so excited that I have the oppertunity to have it. Usually a person goes for this type of blessing when they feel ready .. There was a time when I had turned 14 years of age when I felt that I was ready for it, obvs that didnt happen ... So now at the age of 21 Ive been given this oppertunity to have it, all I can say is that it couldnt have come at a better time. Losing my job has really knocked me, im at the point where im not really sure what I should be doing .. Im hoping that by having my P blessing it will help me to know what I need to do. I wil be totally honest and say that I am a little afraid of what its going to say .. it may say that I need to leave my family for 18 months to go and serve a mission for my church. I honestly feel that serving a mission isnt for me no matter how many people sit there and tell me that it would be the making of me and the best thing that could ever happen to me it just doesnt feel right for me, but I could be totally wrong I could find out that serving a mission is what im destined to do .. I guess we shall see ... Ive been told to go in there with an open mind so I guess thats what ill do!
I know that this next week im going to have alot of oppersition and that alot of negativaty is going to be thrown my way .. I know this because its already started, this is where Ive really gotta stand my ground and be strong. Being strong is so hard sometimes, Ive always been known to be a strong person but in all honesty doing that 24/7 is incredibly exhausting .. especially when your going through a rubbish time ... My friends and family have been a great strength to me lately, its amazing whos there when your really struggling.
This weeks going to be tough but im going to do it and im going to be ok!
Friday, 8 June 2012
Wednesday, 6 June 2012
A Simple Kind Word Can Make All The Difference
There was a time in my life where I could actually sit through a programme and not cry, ask my mum!
The other night I was watching Extreme Make Over Home Edition ( dont judge haha) for those who have never seen it its about a group of people who go to different families houses who have had to deal with hard times in their lives and re-do their homes. For example their home was destroyed due to a flood .. You get the picture.
The other night, I say night ... around 3am I was sat watching an episode that Ide never seen before. This episode was about a family/ mother who had lost her son. His name was Carl Walker. Carl Walker sadly committed suicide at the young age of 11 due to bullying. This really upset me, this type of subject is so close to home for me so I was rather emotional watching it. The show showed clips from his family and they talked about the hard times he went through when he was at school. Its so sad to think that a child so young felt like he couldnt go on. As the show progressed we found that his mother was doing the most incredible thing .. She was turning her terrible experiance into a positive. She is now an advocate and aims to make a stop to bullying in schools ... I think it is amazing what she is doing, this story really did leave me with alot of thoughts.
Bullying and nasty comments towards people happens every single day in the world, im not going to sit here and say im perfect and say that Ive never said a bad thing about a person but after watching that episode the other night its made me see things in a different light. Its so easy to get carried away saying hurtful things to other people but do we really know the impact it might have on that person?
I guess what im trying to say is that maybe we all, myself included need to take a step back and think about what we are saying becuase we will never know how much of an impact that may have on someone. It takes a second to say a nasty comment but that comment could change a persons life forever.
Weve all heard the saying "If youve nothing nice to say dont say anything at all" ...
One simple kind word could make all the differences .. Even a simple hello. With that hello or kind word you never know what difference you could have made in that persons life.
For anyone else who wants to know anything more about the Walker families story then click on the link:
http://www.standtogether.tv/?utm_source=glsen+website&utm_medium=banner&utm_content=Stand+Together&utm_campaign=Stand+Together&utm_source=google&utm_medium=adwords%2Bgrant&utm_content=stand%2Bwith%2Bus&utm_campaign=stand%2Btogether&gclid=CL2ktoemurACFUcKfAodxF8m-A
Anyway enough of me ranting, I hope I dont offend anyone with what Ive said .. This story really inspired me to want to be a better person I suppose.
Much Love x
The other night I was watching Extreme Make Over Home Edition ( dont judge haha) for those who have never seen it its about a group of people who go to different families houses who have had to deal with hard times in their lives and re-do their homes. For example their home was destroyed due to a flood .. You get the picture.
The other night, I say night ... around 3am I was sat watching an episode that Ide never seen before. This episode was about a family/ mother who had lost her son. His name was Carl Walker. Carl Walker sadly committed suicide at the young age of 11 due to bullying. This really upset me, this type of subject is so close to home for me so I was rather emotional watching it. The show showed clips from his family and they talked about the hard times he went through when he was at school. Its so sad to think that a child so young felt like he couldnt go on. As the show progressed we found that his mother was doing the most incredible thing .. She was turning her terrible experiance into a positive. She is now an advocate and aims to make a stop to bullying in schools ... I think it is amazing what she is doing, this story really did leave me with alot of thoughts.
Bullying and nasty comments towards people happens every single day in the world, im not going to sit here and say im perfect and say that Ive never said a bad thing about a person but after watching that episode the other night its made me see things in a different light. Its so easy to get carried away saying hurtful things to other people but do we really know the impact it might have on that person?
I guess what im trying to say is that maybe we all, myself included need to take a step back and think about what we are saying becuase we will never know how much of an impact that may have on someone. It takes a second to say a nasty comment but that comment could change a persons life forever.
Weve all heard the saying "If youve nothing nice to say dont say anything at all" ...
One simple kind word could make all the differences .. Even a simple hello. With that hello or kind word you never know what difference you could have made in that persons life.
For anyone else who wants to know anything more about the Walker families story then click on the link:
http://www.standtogether.tv/?utm_source=glsen+website&utm_medium=banner&utm_content=Stand+Together&utm_campaign=Stand+Together&utm_source=google&utm_medium=adwords%2Bgrant&utm_content=stand%2Bwith%2Bus&utm_campaign=stand%2Btogether&gclid=CL2ktoemurACFUcKfAodxF8m-A
Anyway enough of me ranting, I hope I dont offend anyone with what Ive said .. This story really inspired me to want to be a better person I suppose.
Much Love x
Monday, 4 June 2012
Youve Got A Friend In Me ...
"You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed
Just remember what your old pal said
Boy, you've got a friend in me."
So Ive been blogging quite abit recently, for some reason im feeling really inspired. I see alot of things happening around me, to people that I care for .. So I guess this blog today is for one of my bestest friends.
I live a rediculous amount of miles away from some of my closest friends, I guess you could say they are like family to me. The good thing about my friendships with them is that no matter how many miles apart we are or however long we go without talking we always know that were always going to be there for each other. I guess you could say thats true friendship. Sometimes true friendships are hard to find, its only when your going through the darkest of times do you really find out whos truly there for you. Ive truly been blessed with many amazing friends who have always stood by me through some of the hardest times in my life. Thanks to them Ive come out alright ... Its now time for me to repay them for all that theyve ever done for me.
200 miles seems so far away at times and I know there has been many times where Ive wished I could just drop everything, board a train and travel that 4 1/2 hour train ride to be there for my friends. Sometimes its not that easy ... And believe me it sucks not being able to physically be there at times when im needed.
As the song lyrics at the start of my blog goes ... Youve got a friend in me.
Life will throw so many hard experiances at you but with the right people around you youll get through them. No matter the miles, hours or minutes Im here and intend on always being there. Always look on the bright side of life, things do get better and in time they will. The key element is to trust.. I know what your thinking misses so dont even go there :P
Im so grateful for all my friends .. Friendships are so important, hold onto those close to you.
I really do have alot of love.
Be strong and keep smiling :)
x
Sunday, 3 June 2012
"All Good Things Come To He Who Waits" ...
"All Good Things Come To He Who Waits" ...
Sometimes I find it really hard to believe this statement, im really not the most patient of people. Theres so many things that id love right now but evidently im not ready for them or there not ready for me haha.
Have you ever heard of the term "Your at a crossroad" .. well for me thats where I am. Its not that fun either. I feel like im living in a world of uncertainty .. What do I need to be doing, Whats next for me? I know that Id love to be in a new job, I also know that I dont want to be a Nursery Nurse again .. It was great whilst it lasted but I know full well that Nursery Nurseing isnt the path I need to be going down. So what path do I choose? Do I use what qualifications I already have or do I further my qualifications and do something completely different, something outside of my comfort zone?
Theres a plan for everyone, myself included .. Theres a reason I lost my job, reasons im unsure of right now but theres a reason. I actually feel like this is a test for me, a test to see how patient I can be. If im patient enough will something bigger and better come up for me? I hope so.
Not only do I need to learn to be patient with my job situation but pretty much in most aspects of my life. Being 21 there is alot of pressure that surrounds us, one in particular is being in a relationship. Do you ever get the feeling that people are looking down on you because your not all snuggled up in a relationship, dont get me wrong Id love all that and its something that I would really like right now but Ive learnt that rushing into things isnt the way forward. Someone once said to me that you should never date a person who doesnt see you as a Princess, someone who isnt going to provide you with respect and care that you deserve. Its so true. Like with my job I know that eventually the right person for me will come along, if theyve not already entered my life. Instead of looking for the right one maybe I should be focusing on making myself into the right one. I have so many amazing people in my life right now and feel extremly loved and blessed by those around me. Things will eventually fall into place, maybe not as quickly as I would like but they will and thats something Ive got to learn.
Life throws so many difficult, stressful and complicated times at you, times that you may not understand, times that may really irritate you BUT I know that if you are patient and do all that you can do things will always fall into place.
I may not have my job anymore and I may not have my Prince Charming as of yet but I do have some pretty amazing people around me, people who have always stayed by my side. I dont say it often enough but I do really love everybody in my life, for whatever part you play in it.
Life is what you make it, theres always someone worse off then you. Remember how blessed each of us are and remember to be patient. All will fall into place.
Much Love x
Sometimes I find it really hard to believe this statement, im really not the most patient of people. Theres so many things that id love right now but evidently im not ready for them or there not ready for me haha.
Have you ever heard of the term "Your at a crossroad" .. well for me thats where I am. Its not that fun either. I feel like im living in a world of uncertainty .. What do I need to be doing, Whats next for me? I know that Id love to be in a new job, I also know that I dont want to be a Nursery Nurse again .. It was great whilst it lasted but I know full well that Nursery Nurseing isnt the path I need to be going down. So what path do I choose? Do I use what qualifications I already have or do I further my qualifications and do something completely different, something outside of my comfort zone?
Theres a plan for everyone, myself included .. Theres a reason I lost my job, reasons im unsure of right now but theres a reason. I actually feel like this is a test for me, a test to see how patient I can be. If im patient enough will something bigger and better come up for me? I hope so.
Not only do I need to learn to be patient with my job situation but pretty much in most aspects of my life. Being 21 there is alot of pressure that surrounds us, one in particular is being in a relationship. Do you ever get the feeling that people are looking down on you because your not all snuggled up in a relationship, dont get me wrong Id love all that and its something that I would really like right now but Ive learnt that rushing into things isnt the way forward. Someone once said to me that you should never date a person who doesnt see you as a Princess, someone who isnt going to provide you with respect and care that you deserve. Its so true. Like with my job I know that eventually the right person for me will come along, if theyve not already entered my life. Instead of looking for the right one maybe I should be focusing on making myself into the right one. I have so many amazing people in my life right now and feel extremly loved and blessed by those around me. Things will eventually fall into place, maybe not as quickly as I would like but they will and thats something Ive got to learn.
Life throws so many difficult, stressful and complicated times at you, times that you may not understand, times that may really irritate you BUT I know that if you are patient and do all that you can do things will always fall into place.
I may not have my job anymore and I may not have my Prince Charming as of yet but I do have some pretty amazing people around me, people who have always stayed by my side. I dont say it often enough but I do really love everybody in my life, for whatever part you play in it.
Life is what you make it, theres always someone worse off then you. Remember how blessed each of us are and remember to be patient. All will fall into place.
Much Love x
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