If You Can Dream It, You Can Do It.

So its been ages since I last left a post, alots changed since then...

So I know Ive blogged alot about changes and what not, well theres been some big changes in my life recently. You are now looking at a student, yes thats right Ive gone back into education. I seriously didnt think this would happen again. Im currently studying for my Diploma in Youth Work Practice, come July you will be looking at a fully qualified Youth Worker. Its always been a dream of mine to work with youths but it doesnt just stop there .... Come septemeber I will be studying so that I can become a Youth Offending Officer. How exciting!!! After alot of thinking and alot of ups and downs Ive realised that all my life Ive wanted to work with troubled Youths. Ive always felt like I wouldnt be capable of doing something like just basically due to the work load of uni and stuff but do you know what, If I can dream it, I can so totally do it! Anything is possible if you set your mind to it and well im  ready .. Its seriously time to settle down and get my future on track. I am so excited, the current course Im doing is hard dont get me wrong but I know that If I focus and turn to my Heavenly Father Ill be able to do the very best I can. So watch this space ;)

Church wise life is pretty good, Ive just been given a second calling in church. I am now the YSA rep for the St Helens ward. Im pretty excited, I love spending time with the YSA of my ward their such a great bunch of people. Institute year has started up again ... Ive vowed that I will attend Institute this year as much as I may not want to .. I guess in some cases thats Satan kinda stopping me and putting negative thoughts in my head but I shall not let him win .. So yeah, If I dont attend Institute I give you all permission to kick my butt .. Yes you have it here in writing!!!

Job wise Ive still had no hope, its quite depressing really as know one seems to want to employ me ... I apply for jobs Im qulified in - I get rejected .. I apply for jobs Im trained in and dont really want to do - I STILL get rejected. I cant win! Havent a clue what to do .. For those people out there who sit there and say its easy to get a job. Yeah you havent got a clue! There maybe a shead loads of jobs out there but it doesnt mean youll get hired. You can have amazing qualifications and experience but it doesnt mean that your going to get the job. Im a hard worker who enjoys a challenge and enjoys learning new skills but im still jobless ... So I think before people sit there and critisise those who dont work put yourself in our shoes. Its hard and its stressful. I hate not having the same freedom I had when I worked as a Nursery Nurse. I hate not being able to contribute as much as I would of if I was working. But ... The Lord works in mysterious ways and I know somewhere down the line someones going to give me a break and Ill eventually get the job im supposed to have. Lifes good. Keeping Positive!

The Lord works in mysterious ways and you may feel like the world is against you BUT everythign happens for a reason you just have to keep the faith and be positive.

Muchos Lovings Bloggers

x

So I havent blogged for awhile ... one thing Ive found with my blog is that I like to keep it on a Spiritual level. Its all good blogging about what your going to have for dinner but my purpose for my blog is to inspire people and show people my testimony of The Church of Jesus Christ.

Well ... Today I was able to attend church, I was surviving on around 3 hours sleep! I must say im impressed by the fact that I was actually able to keep a focus on everything that was going on around me. The one thing, well theres a few things that stood out to me today. As we all came together for our final meeting of the day and the bread and water was blessed and passed around we had the pleasure of listening to a talk by a young women who has recently just left the young womens programme. Her talk spoke about her time in young women and her trials with not only the programme but also herself. I found this talk so touching and it actually brought a tear to my eye which for those who know me is rare haha ... It focused on the topic of Self Worth. Sometimes thats such a tricky topic for a person to talk about, I know this oh so well. When listening to this talk the spirit touched me so much and made me realise a few things. I dont really know this young women but I was so proud of her and for the words she spoke, it truly came from her heart .. We as YSA will be very blessed to have someone like that within our programme.

All the way through Sacrement the main theme that stood out to me was Eternity and preparing to obtain this and all its blessings. Eternity is such a long long time and I am finding that this preperation isnt going to just happen over night, its always going to be an on going thing. Theres so many people around me getting engaged and preparing to marry within the temple of the Lord and its made me realise that this is something that I myself would really like. The Lord knows my hearts desires and its upto me to prepare and to do all the things I need to do. Throughout the whole of my time within the Young Women programme one comment that always stuck in my head was "You Need to prepare to be Mrs Right" ... Im learning as im growing up that this statement is so true, as a youth you kinda brush those certain comments aside and think yeah its all good ill defo get married etc ... Im learning that for something like this to happen to me I need to put preperation into it, I need to be at a stable Spritual Level and I need to be doing the things the Lord asks of me. Once this has happened and the Lord feels its the right time then I hope im blessed with marriage and also the oppertunity to have an Eternal family. What a blessing that is for everybody! Its a long road but I know for myself that if im doing everything I should be the Lord will bless me. Lifes hard when its full of so many unknowns .. but thats when Faith comes into it.

Im grateful to know that the Saviour has given us the oppertunity to have Eternal life and to return home with him with our own Eternal families.

Ima stop all the soppyness but I really felt like I needed to share this as its so important to me and its my goal to obtain Eternal Life and to be able to share it with my Eternal companion.

Lifes full of ups and downs but we need to stay true to the Lord and continue to do all we know we should be doing. The Saviour loves us and wants us to be happy and he wants us to all return home to him again.

Enjoy the rest of your Sabbath day ... <3

“A testimony is a most precious possession because it is not acquired by logic or reason alone, it cannot be purchased with earthly possessions, and it cannot be given as a present or inherited from our ancestors. We cannot depend on the testimonies of other people. We need to know for ourselves. President Gordon B. Hinckley said, ‘Every Latter-day Saint has the responsibility to know for himself or herself with a certainty beyond doubt that Jesus is the resurrected, living Son of the living God.”

― Dieter F. Uchtdorf

So Ive not blogged in awhile ... Lifes pretty amazing right now, I have some amazing people in my life that make everything so worth while. Ive learnt that life is far too short and that I need to live it to its fullest.

Church life is super amazing, I had the pleasure of doing a talk last week about the Joy of service. I spoke about a story of a young man giving up his time of study to spend it with his grandmother who was in the final stages of her mortal life, this story really touched me .. what he did was such a selfless act of service and love for his grandmother. It made me think about whether or not I do enough for those around me. My talk really has inspired me to do more for those around me, espaecially my mum.

The main reason for my blog this evening is to talk about testimony. Testimony plays a huge part in my life, without it I wouldnt be the strongest Latter-day Saint that I am today. It is so important that you obtain yoiur own testimony of the gospel and heavenly father and so on as that is your starting foundation.

I am truly blessed that Ive been able to recognise my own testimony and love for gospel since the age of 11. When I first had the discussions with the missionaries I knew from then that the church was true and the Book Mormon was true. Such an amazing feeling when you know! Believe me!

Over the years Ive faced many different types of trials, some minor and some utterly heartbreaking. Sometimes I may have swayed from the Gospel but the one thing that has always pulled me back is my testimony. How could I walk away from the Gospel knowing that it was true, how could I walk away from my loving Saviour? Luckily I saw the light so to speak and im here and my testimony is ever growing ... When you obtain a testimony it doesnt just stay the same .. each day it progesses and becomes stronger.

I love my Saviour and im so grateful for the testimony that I have of our gospel. I know that as long as I do whats right and I hold on to that Iron rod Heavenly Father will provide so many amazing things for me. I can truly testify that this is the true gospel and that 9 years ago I made the best choice of my life and I wouldnt change it for the world.

Heavenly Father loves us no matter our flaws, he will never leave us. I love my friends and family so much.

Amen  & God Bless x


Ps. Sorry Its Such A Random Blog Tonight! ;)

Time To Prepare ...

Sunday 17th June 2012 .... A day where I finally recieve that much needed guidence, and when I say much needed I so totally mean it.

So Ive recently blogged about being at a "cross road" well Ive been amazingly blessed with the oppertunity to recieve something truly amazing within my church. Its a special blessing formally known as a Patriarchal Blessing. This special blessing will provide me with much needed guidence, comfort and protection. Its amazing really ... This type of blessing is very personal to the individual person.

Im so excited that I have the oppertunity to have it. Usually a person goes for this type of blessing when they feel ready .. There was a time when I had turned 14 years of age when I felt that I was ready for it, obvs that didnt happen ... So now at the age of 21 Ive been given this oppertunity to have it, all I can say is that it couldnt have come at a better time. Losing my job has really knocked me, im at the point where im not really sure what I should be doing .. Im hoping that by having my P blessing it will help me to know what I need to do. I wil be totally honest and say that I am a little afraid of what its going to say .. it may say that I need to leave my family for 18 months to go and serve a mission for my church. I honestly feel that serving a mission isnt for me no matter how many people sit there and tell me that it would be the making of me and the best thing that could ever happen to me it just doesnt feel right for me, but I could be totally wrong I could find out that serving a mission is what im destined to do .. I guess we shall see ... Ive been told to go in there with an open mind so I guess thats what ill do!

I know that this next week im going to have alot of oppersition and that alot of negativaty is going to be thrown my way .. I know this because its already started, this is where Ive really gotta stand my ground and be strong. Being strong is so hard sometimes, Ive always been known to be a strong person but in all honesty doing that 24/7 is incredibly exhausting .. especially when your going through a rubbish time ... My friends and family have been a great strength to me lately, its amazing whos there when your really struggling.

This weeks going to be tough but im going to do it and im going to be ok!

A Simple Kind Word Can Make All The Difference

There was a time in my life where I could actually sit through a programme and not cry, ask my mum!

The other night I was watching Extreme Make Over Home Edition ( dont judge haha) for those who have never seen it its about a group of people who go to different families houses who have had to deal with hard times in their lives and re-do their homes. For example their home was destroyed due to a flood .. You get the picture.

The other night, I say night ... around 3am I was sat watching an episode that Ide never seen before. This episode was about a family/ mother who had lost her son. His name was Carl Walker. Carl Walker sadly committed suicide at the young age of 11 due to bullying. This really upset me, this type of subject is so close to home for me so I was rather emotional watching it. The show showed clips from his family and they talked about the hard times he went through when he was at school. Its so sad to think that a child so young felt like he couldnt go on. As the show progressed we found that his mother was doing the most incredible thing .. She was turning her terrible experiance into a positive. She is now an advocate and aims to make a stop to bullying in schools ... I think it is amazing what she is doing, this story really did leave me with alot of thoughts.

Bullying and nasty comments towards people happens every single day in the world, im not going to sit here and say im perfect and say that Ive never said a bad thing about a person but after watching that episode the other night its made me see things in a different light. Its so easy to get carried away saying hurtful things to other people but do we really know the impact it might have on that person?

I guess what im trying to say is that maybe we all, myself included need to take a step back and think about what we are saying becuase we will never know how much of an impact that may have on someone. It takes a second to say a nasty comment but that comment could change a persons life forever.

 Weve all heard the saying "If youve nothing nice to say dont say anything at all" ...

One simple kind word could make all the differences .. Even a simple hello. With that hello or kind word you never know what difference you could have made in that persons life.

For anyone else who wants to know anything more about the Walker families story then click on the link:

http://www.standtogether.tv/?utm_source=glsen+website&utm_medium=banner&utm_content=Stand+Together&utm_campaign=Stand+Together&utm_source=google&utm_medium=adwords%2Bgrant&utm_content=stand%2Bwith%2Bus&utm_campaign=stand%2Btogether&gclid=CL2ktoemurACFUcKfAodxF8m-A

Anyway enough of me ranting, I hope I dont offend anyone with what Ive said .. This story really inspired me to want to be a better person I suppose.

Much Love x

Youve Got A Friend In Me ...

"You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed
Just remember what your old pal said
Boy, you've got a friend in me."

So Ive been blogging quite abit recently, for some reason im feeling really inspired. I see alot of things happening around me, to people that I care for .. So I guess this blog today is for one of my bestest friends.

I live a rediculous amount of miles away from some of my closest friends, I guess you could say they are like family to me. The good thing about my friendships with them is that no matter how many miles apart we are or however long we go without talking we always know that were always going to be there for each other. I guess you could say thats true friendship. Sometimes true friendships are hard to find, its only when your going through the darkest of times do you really find out whos truly there for you. Ive truly been blessed with many amazing friends who have always stood by me through some of the hardest times in my life. Thanks to them Ive come out alright ... Its now time for me to repay them for all that theyve ever done for me.

200 miles seems so far away at times and I know there has been many times where Ive wished I could just drop everything, board a train and travel that 4 1/2 hour train ride to be there for my friends. Sometimes its not that easy ... And believe me it sucks not being able to physically be there at times when im needed.

As the song lyrics at the start of my blog goes ... Youve got a friend in me.

Life will throw so many hard experiances at you but with the right people around you youll get through them. No matter the miles, hours or minutes Im here and intend on always being there. Always look on the bright side of life, things do get better and in time they will. The key element is to trust.. I know what your thinking misses so dont even go there :P

Im so grateful for all my friends .. Friendships are so important, hold onto those close to you.

I really do have alot of love.

Be strong and keep smiling :)

x

"All Good Things Come To He Who Waits" ...

"All Good Things Come To He Who Waits" ...

Sometimes I find it really hard to believe this statement, im really not the most patient of people. Theres so many things that id love right now but evidently im not ready for them or there not ready for me haha.

Have you ever heard of the term "Your at a crossroad" .. well for me thats where I am. Its not that fun either. I feel like im living in a world of uncertainty .. What do I need to be doing, Whats next for me? I know that Id love to be in a new job, I also know that I dont want to be a Nursery Nurse again .. It was great whilst it lasted but I know full well that Nursery Nurseing isnt the path I need to be going down. So what path do I choose? Do I use what qualifications I already have or do I further my qualifications and do something completely different, something outside of my comfort zone?

Theres a plan for everyone, myself included .. Theres a reason I lost my job, reasons im unsure of right now but theres a reason. I actually feel like this is a test for me, a test to see how patient I can be. If im patient enough will something bigger and better come up for me? I hope so.

Not only do I need to learn to be patient with my job situation but pretty much in most aspects of my life. Being 21 there is alot of pressure that surrounds us, one in particular is being in a relationship. Do you ever get the feeling that people are looking down on you because your not all snuggled up in a relationship, dont get me wrong Id love all that and its something that I would really like right now but Ive learnt that rushing into things isnt the way forward. Someone once said to me that you should never date a person who doesnt see you as a Princess, someone who isnt going to provide you with respect and care that you deserve. Its so true. Like with my job I know that eventually the right person for me will come along, if theyve not already entered my life. Instead of looking for the right one maybe I should be focusing on making myself into the right one. I have so many amazing people in my life right now and feel extremly loved and blessed by those around me. Things will eventually fall into place, maybe not as quickly as I would like but they will and thats something Ive got to learn.

Life throws so many difficult, stressful and complicated times at you, times that you may not understand, times that may really irritate you BUT I know that if you are patient and do all that you can do things will always fall into place.

I may not have my job anymore and I may not have my Prince Charming as of yet but I do have some pretty amazing people around me, people who have always stayed by my side. I dont say it often enough but I do really love everybody in my life, for whatever part you play in it.

Life is what you make it, theres always someone worse off then you. Remember how blessed each of us are and remember to be patient. All will fall into place.

Much Love x

So I havent blogged for awhile, life has been a crazy rollercoaster lately. Some good and some bad! But I know that the things I have come across lately are for my benefit. So I guess im rather grateful.

This weekend Ive had the oppertunity to spend each day with my YSA, its been amazing! Id forgotten how good it felt to spend time with those who are in my church. They are such great examples to me and I dont even think they realise this. Im so thankful for the love and friendship they give me, they truly help me to progress. In really enjoying teaching YSA sunday school at the moment too, im feeling really blessed from doing it. Heavenly Father has given me a great oppertunity to gain more knowledge and gain better friendships. My class members are amazing, they have such amazing testimonies and I love the spirit that they bring to each of my lessons. Im so proud of them and I Know Heavenly Father is too!

But ... The main reason for my blog today is to tell my amazing best friend/sister that I love her dearly. Life throws so many bad things our way and some things that we go through can be really heartbreaking, sometimes you are unsure why your going through the certain things you go through. Heavenly Father never gives you anything you cant deal with. He loves you very much and will never leave you by yourself, he will always watch over you and when the time comes for you to have to say goodbye, he will wipe your tears away.

A wise friend once told me that a goodbye is only a hello ... They never truly leave you, they will always be in your heart.

Friendship is so important at times of need, keep your friends close. I will always be here no matter what!

My prayers and love are sent out to my amazing and brave friend!

Love Always! <3

Trust ...

"If you can`t trust anyone else, trust God." ...

Trust ... What does trust mean to me? Well, it means putting all my faith in one person hoping that they will never let me down, it means believing in that one person hoping that they will always be there for me no matter what. It means knowing that I wont be judged and all my downfalls will be forgotten.

Who do I trust .. I trust my Saviour.

The term trust has been on my mind for quite awhile now, infact Trust is one of the main subjects for my first ever lesson I will be teaching in Sunday school tomorrow. It talks about how Nephi places all his trust in the Lord. Its amazing when you think about it, Nephi went through so much and yet he had a 100% trust in the Lord.. Nephi is an amazing example to me, he stayed faithful to his Heavenly Father and placed all his trust in the Lord and through this the Saviour never left his side. This can be applied in our lives today. If we stay faithful and trust in the Lord we will be blessed and Heavenly Father will never leave our side.

Its always been so hard for me to trust people, im quite a reserved person when it comes to "opening up" theres only a few people that Ive managed to do that too ... In some cases Ive regreted doing that as when your trust is broken its hard to re-build it again BUT .. I know that no matter what, I can always trust in the Lord. He is my Saviour and has mine and your best interests at heart, as long as we following the promptings of the spirit and listening carefully and place that trust in the Lord we will never be alone. We really are blessed to know that if we ever do feel that theres know one there and theres know one to trust that we do have our Heavenly Father there .. He never leaves our side.

Always remember that we are loved by so many, our friends, family and especially our Saviour. I know my redeemer lives!

God Bless And Sweet Dreams All <3

A Dedication ..

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."

Today is a day of rememberance ... A day of reflection. Today marks a day where we lost a friend. Im sure that today alot of us have been thinking of that time, one of the most saddest and heartbreaking times we could have ever imagined going through. No matter how close we all were or werent it effected us all in many different ways. Even though the years have passed, though it feels like only yesterday we will never truly forget.

Its hard still yet to fully understand why, so many questions unanswered .. questions that will always linger at the back of our mind but I know that it made us all stronger and it made a bond between us that will never be broken. Memories can be a beautiful blesisng, we have an oppertunity to look back at the past and see so many positives.

2007 was one of the hardest years of my life. I finished my GCSEs, didnt get the results I wanted and I went abit off the rails doing things that werent me. Id forgot who I was. Then in the September of 2007 I joined Bridgend College to study a Diploma in Health And Social Care. That was the best day of my life. Id found somewhere I belonged .. My college class clicked from day one and we felt like a tight family. It was amazing yet weird how much we all clicked together. We had an amazing tutor who was always there for us and knew how to have a laugh with us. It was good, life was great. Unfortunatly 4 years ago today we lost one of our beautiful friends. It was hard, well tbh thats an understatement but we all came together as a class, as a family and we cried together and we became strong together. I am so honoured and grateful to have had the oppertunity to have studied with each person in that class. Friendships and bonds were made that nothing not even death could break.

Life throws some real rubbish times but Ive learnt that with the right people in your life you can overcome anything. Im really grateful for all my friends and family, for all the times they have ever been there for me. Im so grateful I had the oppertunity to have met such a beautiful friendly girl who I know is always looking down on each and everyone of us .. no doubt laughing at some of the stupid things we do.

What im trying to say is that, we have all loved and lost someone at some point in our lives but we must always remember that they are never truly gone and they will never be forgotten. Memories live on and each person we have loved and lost will be in the sky shining brightly down on us and keeping us safe. God only takes the best angels.

God Bless x

Hold To The Rod ...

So today the whole of my sabbath day was centered around The Iron Rod and also oppersition that is around us that could be creating a barrier between us holding strongly onto the rod. So for all use that may not know what The Iron Rod is, in our religion we believe that the rod is the word of God and that we should strive to keep hold of this rod throughout our lives and continue to stay faithful so that one day we will be worthy to reunited with our Heavenly Father.

Its amazing how Heavenly Father works, I can admit I sit there sometimes and I think to myself how strongly am I holding onto the rod. Well honestly sometimes its not as strong as I would like it to be. The Iron Rod for me isnt a perfect straight line, infact for me it has lots of twists and turns and cracks, whenever I get to any of these I know that im going to have to face a trial in my life and that at that time I need to hold onto the rod as strongly as I can. I can admit that at some of those times my hand slips off the Rod, I feel defeated and tired but listening to my lessons and talks today in church it has helped me to realise that no matter what I go through Heavenly Father will always be there to guide me through, all I need is the faith and the determination to overcome what Satan throws at me. Easier said then done eh? But believe me its so worth it in the end because I know that I have a constant companion in the Lord, he will never leave me. I always refer to the footprints in the sand poem. Whenever you feel low or feel as if youve been beaten remember that you do not walk alone, Heavenly Father is with you all the way, he is carrying you through all the dark times.


I have an amazing oppertunity in 2 weeks to give my first talk in my new ward, well I say new .. Ive been there nearly 2 years. My talk will be on testimony, what a great subject that can help me to remember why I need to hold onto the rod strongly. Testimoy is a very important factor in my life, even during the days when I was inactive at church I still new in my heart that I had a testimony of the gospel. Having a testmony, my own testimony is a great gift. I feel so warm and tingly when I bare my testimony each month. For me my testimony is a reminder that I am a daughter of God and that my Saviour loves me and why I chose to become a member of the church. For so long I have been bothered about what people think about me but when you look at the bigger picture it doesnt matter what anybody thinks about you as long as you are true to yourself and you trust in the Lord. My testimony really helps me to remember that and im so excited to give a talk on testimony because you never know what effect a talk may have on a person. We are all examples to each other and we need to remember that, we could change peoples lives without even realising it. Trust me I know, Ive had my life changed so many times after hearing talks and testimonies in church. I have a great love for my friends both in and out of church, they are such examples to me and im so grateful for all that they do in my life. You make me the person I am today .. Im not perfect, I make mistakes but Im trying to put things right.

We are all so blessed and have so much potential in life, stay strong and remember that Heavenly Father is always there all we need to do is hold on to that Rod, pray and read scriptures on a regular basis.

Hold to the rod, the iron rod ...

God bless you x

The Real Me ...

So ... Ive read many blogs that some of my friends have put together so I thought Id join in the fun and show you the real Tasha.


Hello there, my name is Tasha and I am 20 years of age. I have an amazing job as a Nursery Nurse, its so amazing to be apart of a childs development and to watch them grow in so many different ways, for that I am so blessed as I know that it is helping me to prepare for my own family.

 I am a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints, I was baptised on the 29th November 2003 at the age of 11 .. 9 years later and I can say it was one of the best choices I could have ever made in my life. Church Life hasnt always been easy, there has been times when I have sat there and thought did I really make the right choice?  Before I became a member of the church I was just your average Christian, I rarely attended church on a Sunday and would just go about my day as if it was any normal day. For many years we had the missionaries knocking at our door but we were the typical "No thank you we dont have time" family. Eventually one day at my mums work she was invited to attend a "Mormon" get together from her manager who also was a Mormon .. From that day on both myself and my mum began to have the discussions, my mother was baptised first in the March and then I followed in the November. Its not always been an easy ride alot of friends were lost through the choices we made to become members of the Church, but I see it as if you cant love me for me then those people are of little importance.

Since joining the church I have had some of the most heartbreaking and painful trials I think I could ever go through. They say they make you stronger, there was a time where I didnt believe this and I was so angry with church and my Heavenly Father for the pain I was feeling and for the pain others around me were feeling but thanks to the wonderful examples and amazing friends and the bestest mum ever I was able to pull through and partly overcome the pain I was feeling. Il admit, years down the line I still feel the pain from some of my trials but I know that my Heavenly Father wouldnt give me anything I couldnt deal with. I am a choice daughter of God and I have a purpose and I need to remember this. Im sure theres many people out there who have and do feel this way but you must always remember that you are loved and that each and everyone of us has a great purpose and that with faith we will succeed. A great scripture that always helps to pull me through the dark times is

For after much tribulation come the blessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand. D&C 58:4 

Ive spent some many years focusing on the negatives in my life that I have pushed so many people away. For that im sorry. I hope my blogs will help my friends and others around me to understand the type of person I am beyond all the smiles and jokes.

So heres to looking to the future .. The future is only as bright as you make it.

x